The Duck Runner

Ooops I guess that is WIT

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 08:00:22 -0500

Dec 13 2012 236.6
Last week 211.4
Today 214.0
Up 2.6
Down total 22.6

My last entry seemed a bit harsh towards my Mom. I think that and the fact I am up over two pounds shows that I am an emotional eater.

Even though its been 5 years, it is still hard. In a lot of ways I miss her.

But I am so thankful that she isn’t suffering anymore.
I am thankful for my family that I do have.
I am worried that I am gonna do the same to my family. My weight goes up and down. A few years ago, our family Doctor was concerned with all the extra weight I had and what it was doing to me. Last year I gained a lot of that weight back, and I am worried about those concerns.

But I am getting back into control. This week I am gonna get back on track.

life has been down.....

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 10:51:33 -0500

Now before you start thinking I am a Mama’s Boy…

This week marks the week 5 years ago that my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer for the second time and she passed away that year in May.

One would think that May would be harder for me, but it isn’t. That dreaded phone call from my sister and then my Mom where I find out still plays in my mind. Those emotions that I still can not seem to get over. I think the one that gets me, is the anger I was feeling. This was the second time. Mom knew that if she continued doing what she did, it greatly increased her chances of getting cancer AGAIN.

I knowI am an emotional eater and this week is no different. I want to eat and don’t care what I eat. On one hand I know that the scale isn’t gonna be nice to me. On the other hand I know I should be heading to the gym and do my core and run. But I don’t want to. I want to stay in my crappy, feel sorry for myself mood.

WIM and a longer run!

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:51:42 -0500

Dec 31 236.6

Feb 4 213.3

Feb 11 211.4

Down 1.9

Total down 25.6

I feel so much better, I feel healthier. Can not believe how 25 pounds can make a difference, but it does. I hope I can keep the momentum going. I know the weight loss will slow down. I am already feeling the need to eat a bit more, I am hungrier after my workouts.

Need to come up with plans for that!

I missed my run day yesterday, I went for a short walk with my beautiful wife. It was better then nothing and loved the conversation. I just didn’t have it in me to go to the gym yesterday. In fact when I planned on going to the gym, I laid down for a rest and sleep for almost 2 hours.

Today though I made up for it. I ran 6.7 miles on a hamster wheel. Not a great time. but I have to admit when I was done, I realized I still could have done more. That was a good feeling, to not totally feel exhausted after a longer run. It gives me hope for actually running another 1/2 marathon.

Speaking of 1/2 marathons, I have yet to sign up for any. There are a few locally that I can run in May and June. I might try.

We are gonna do the 5k color run in Minneapolis in July.

I really want to go back to Walt Disney for the Marathon weekend in Jan 2014. Just not sure if I can do the goofy again. I might settle for the 1/2 because it is a lot of fun.

Life is chugging along

Fri, 08 Feb 2013 08:55:14 -0500

Not a lot happening in my life this week. But some of the highlights.

Got to spend the day with my wife yesterday. We went into the city to pick up a few things. Best part of it was sitting in Starbucks just being together. We have not done that in awhile

Oldest daughter hasn’t been feeling that well, uhm it was about the same time last month too. uhmmmmmm, she has been moody…….EEEEKKKKK

Youngest daughter thinks she is older than oldest daughter and wants a lot more freedom. She thinks is should be perfectly okay for her to go hangout with her friends from after school to after gymnastics without coming home. she is only 10. Call me old fashioned but “I don’t think so”

Today is a run day, hoping to go beyond 5 miles. I am still shocked that I can even think that. My first run of the year I was in tears after the first mile.

Have a Good Friday!

missing disney

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 08:17:21 -0500

missing disney

wilwheaton: #TeamGrover #GROVER4LIFE He would make an...

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 08:12:32 -0500

wilwheaton:

#TeamGrover

#GROVER4LIFE

He would make an excellent Dr!

WiM

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 08:14:20 -0500

Dec 31 2012 236.6
Feb 4 2013 213.3

Down 23.3

Life is going in the right direction. I really want to be below 200. I will be there!

Goals for Feb
Weight wise be between 200 and 205
Running, 52 miles
Work more on my core.
Log 29 trips to the gym. Seeing if I can make it to the gym twice in one day.

I also need to work harder on health eating. The avoidance plan is working great, but I don’t want to stay there. I want to learn moderation. I want to know that feeling of having one piece and being Satisfied.

Have a good month!

love this

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 23:25:25 -0500

love this

run run you can't catch me....

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 12:21:00 -0500

Well, okay you probably could. As I waddle on the hamster wheel.

This mornings run was a lot more fun than it has been.

I am done with trying to run at the speed I did last summer. My only goal was to beat my last runs distance.

On Tuesday, I ran 3.66 miles in 45 min. Today I ran 3.82 in 45.
Not a huge difference. But the way my body felt after todays run was totally different. Better. For me huge improvement!

My confidence is building! I am feeling stronger, again!

I am starting to enjoy the benefits of healthy living.

My weight is going down, I can move faster!

But

I can get down on myself, and think that…..

my weight should be closer to my goal

I should be running faster….

I should ………

I am trying to change my thoughts have been trying to change to

I am……………

I sweat way to much for 3.5 miles! This year I have struggled...

Tue, 29 Jan 2013 11:59:32 -0500

I sweat way to much for 3.5 miles!

This year I have struggled with my running. This time last year, I was running longer and faster.

I have been kinda ticked with myself, because I have been trying to run the pace or faster that I was running when I was in a lot better shape.
I couldn’t
I would feel defeated
I wanted to give up.

I have realized that I need to start slower and than I can run longer. I can add up the miles.

Hoping that as my overall fitness level improves, AGAIN, so will my time.

With that realization, I enjoyed my run today. I took it easier with my pace. I had to laugh because I could even muster up a smile after my run.

But that leads me to a question,
Do you ever get possessive about the equipment in your local gym?

For whatever reason there is one particular treadmill that I really like! Walking in to the gym this morning, there was another member that entered when I did. An acquaintance of sorts. But the last time they were in they used MY treadmill. So I started up a polite conversation, and in it, asked if they were running or cross-training today. They were cross-training, I sighed a silently!

WIM

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 20:32:14 -0500

Dec 31 236.6

Jan 28 216.4 Down this week 3.5 Total down 20.4

I am pumped again with another great week of weight loss.

Thinking about Feb’s Goals, nothing set yet.

jrfred: GPOY agree, think its cuz I am a canadian, eh!

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 12:51:51 -0500

jrfred:

GPOY

agree, think its cuz I am a canadian, eh!

michaeldoeslife: Today is the first day (since Saturday) that...

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:54:38 -0500

michaeldoeslife:

Today is the first day (since Saturday) that my chest isn’t extremely sore. It’s only a little sore today. I was able to use my arms to get out of bed. But enough whining. I secretly like it. It’s a reminder that I worked. Especially at 3am when I roll over and wake up because of the soreness. Yeah that is great.

#BodyByGomez says today is leg day. I might have to hire a driver.

So true, we need to use them!

The road back is a long one

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:43:56 -0500

Okay I was at the gym, running on the hamster wheel they call a treadmill. It was going good. The goal was to get to 4 miles. Not that big of goal, but considering on Jan 2, when I tried to run, I couldn’t even get to a mile. I was frustrated…….

Today, it was going great, until.

I remembered…..

I remembered that at this time last year, I just finished the goofy challenge.

I should be able to run longer and faster,

then all of a sudden the 4 miles that I was trying to do, seemed surmountable, was it worth it. I should be doing more that 4 miles. But I can’t.

I was kinda getting depressed, ready to give up. Then it hit me what this was. This was the mental wall.

This was the moment that I could stop the treadmill and give up. Or be thankful I am on the road back. I am making it back to where I should be.

I kept going and finished my 4 miles. Not a lot, but a victory, because I didn’t give up. I didn’t give in and accept my pity party.

I also realized that before this I kinda was giving up. The last few days, eating wise have been hard. I WANT CARBS and I WANT them now. I went beyond my eating goals.

Kinda had that I am gonna give up mentality. But I am not. I am gonna “carry on”.

I am gonna learn from what has happened over the last few days to set me back and learn from them

1. Having a Root Canal done, I hate the dentist chair, my anxiety goes through the roof. So I was stressed. THEREFORE I was stress eating.

2. I made poor choices. I realized that my intake neglected protein and veggies. Today increasing them already. realizing that protein curbs that “I am hungry feeling”

3. Been without COFFEE. I NEED COFFEE. I am trying to cut down, but I still need some I can’t go without. So allowing myself to have a few.

4. Workstuff=stressful . I have not done a lot on this front and need to be a lot more aggressive in the job search.

All in all I think I have a better understanding and game plan on what I am doing. I am not gonna be back where I was overnight, but I will be a lot healthier and in better shape than I ever have been.

WIM

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 08:07:40 -0500

Dec 31 2012 236.6
Jan 21 2013 219.9
Down total 16.7

I will take it, happily!
I am realizing that my weight loss is now gonna get harder. My body isn’t giving up its reserve as easily. Fitness is getting harder. As long as I KEEP getting closer to my goal weight I Will be happy. Its just a product of living in a McWorld.

I want what I want, and I want it now!

I just wish I was at my goal weight and the fitness level that I want to be at NOW

I know I should have the attitude of: “learn from the process” so I don’t end up here again.

But all in all it was a great weekend.
I went to the Gym. Fri, Sat, and Sun. NO excuse was strong enough!

My youngest daughter, (9) was at a gymnastics competition and came 2nd over all in her age and category. Proud Dad Moment. And spent time with Friends.

Need to reblog, when I need to overcome some excuses.

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 20:09:10 -0500

Need to reblog, when I need to overcome some excuses.

Pizza is my kryptonite

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 20:09:52 -0500

What do you do, when you have a plan for supper, and life goes sideways?

After school, we went to go sledding trekked up to our usual spot, to only find that it was blocked off due to a new housing development. We got home and the kids starting saying they were hungry and all of a sudden I was too. All plans went out the window, and settled for pizza.

I LOVE pizza and have always overdone it when we have it. I tried to implement a game plan.

While the pizza was in the oven, we had a local deli shoppes, I tried to eat veggies. I had a serving of snow peas and cucumbers. I even sat down and figured out the nutritional info. I ate my “allowed” portion. The pizza has been calling me ever since. I want more pizza…..

I am getting week….

need more pizza…..

gonna go get a drink of water….

Another 3 miler and a few cookies....

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 11:47:17 -0500

Its cardio day, so it was another 3 miles. I am still tentative while I run, still concerned that my knee will give me grief. But it didn’t.
Warm up 5 min walk
10 min run
1 min fast walk
5 min run, was suppose to be 10 but I needed to take a breather, therefore
1 min slow walk
10 min run
1 min cool down.

Still going…..
Last night I did the midnight devouring of cookies,but the wife called me out this morning because she had to go and get more cookies from the freezer for the kids lunches.

Still trying to figure out why….
I did go to bed kinda hungry
I think I am kinda overwhelmed with weight loss and life
Trying to do this all on my own…..
Lost focused

Homemade Peanut Butter. YUM So easy, dump peanuts and flavor...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:30:54 -0500

Homemade Peanut Butter.
YUM
So easy, dump peanuts and flavor (Cinnamon) in to food processor and leave it for 5 min or so until its the consistency you like.
Its great on toast. Trying to convince the wife that she needs to try making peanut butter cookies with it. But that hasn’t worked yet.

WIM

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 07:58:15 -0500

Start
Dec 31 2012 236.6
Jan 14 2013 222.9
down 13.7

That is so cool, Eating healthy and going to the gym pays off.
This week I am making an appointment for physiotherapy , my knee has been giving me grief and I want to take care of it before it becomes to big of a problem.
On wednesday I have an appointment with a personal trainer to get working on my core and increase my overall physical strength.